i think i just died a little inside.

so i have this mega crush on this guy. ive posted about it before. and i have like nooo chance with him. but i had hope before! i had hope that maybe possibly if we talked more and stuff there could possibly be more than friendship. all my hopes and dreams about that are now crushed. would you like to know why? because someone asked him on formspring what his type of girl is. he said he didnt really have a type but then he said he'd be happy as shit if he found a short asian or black girl. i am not short, asian, or black. im tall and white. so grrr! but he did say he'd hang out with me over spring break. hmm... i guess friends will have to do. pshh who am i kidding? i'll never lose this little bit of hope still left. until he tells me himself that he doesnt like me, i will have some hope. but im totally not gonna ask him.