98pxy summer jam!

so the summer jam last night was totally amazing! when we got there The Hoodies were playing. they were just an opening band for everyone else but they were amazing. and they did a cover to Love Story by Taylor Swift. it was so funny! then some girl was there but i dont remember her name. she was going to be playing at Tilt Night Club for the after party haha. then Tina Parol came on and she was adorable! Wale was next and the guy he was with was pretty! then Jessie James was playing and some guy behind me was all "shes so hot!" haha but she had a good performance. even my dad liked her! then Moose from the radio came out and danced to some Michael Jackson music. haha that was awesome! Boys Like Girls was next and they were my favorite! i love them soo much! and it was funny because he took a phone from someone in the crowd and talked to whoever was on the phone! haha and last but not least... dun dun dunnn... Flo Rida! he was greatt! he let a bunch of girls come up on stage with him and he gave this one girl a gold chain! it was so great! im glad i went. to me it was my first real concert because the other ones i went to... i didnt even know who the bands were! hah so this was amazing :]

Things i love thursday!

• boys like girls along with all the other people who will be playing at the summer jam tonight which i will be attending with kelly and lauren! :]
• vanilla bean cake.
• roseland water park ((me and zoe went there yesterday and it was soo much fun! small park but worth it.))
• mel's hair straightener ((haha it works sooo well! i love it. i just have to like go through my hair once and its perfectly straight!))
• getting scared from watching the grudge 2 which most people say isnt scary haha.
• stan. the huge spider in zoes bathroom.
• being funny. its an amazing gift i have :] ahahhah
• my nails looking pretty! with them nicely cut down by mel and french manicured by zoe!
  
• school starting in 2 weeks ((its a new building and im sooo nervous! i know im gonna get lost. haha))
• non deflicted eyebrows ((for once haha))
  

Degrassi Goes Hollywood

so Degrassi Goes Hollywood premiers tonight and i can not wait! normally id be at catys house right now and wed be doing something stupid, possibly making cake in a cup, and we'd be all excited for the new movie event that we've been waiting for! or if we couldnt make a sleepover work we'd be on the phone. then at every commercial we'd call eachother and be like "omg! they just did that! and they're so cute! wow i cant believe this!" thats how tonight should be spent. in one of those two ways. but no. i MIGHT watch it tonight. with mel. and if i dont then i MIGHT get to see it tomorrow night... at my daddys house. and if that doesnt work either i'll see it with zoe at her house. which id say is the best of all those choices cuz she actually likes degrassi now that i got her into it. either way it wont be the same but im sure it will still be a great movie! :]

Monday Memories. ((on friday :p))

ok i know you must have seen me write "ihy" before. no, it does not mean "i hate you" its actually the opposite of that. let me explain:

one day me, caty, and jessica were all at jessicas house. we were trying to do my hair as you can see in the picture above. we were trying to "hump" it. ya know where you have a hump or bump right on top of your head. now my hair was not cooperating well so we had to use something to hump it. we used a huge curling iron. it was too big so we failed. so jessica left for a few minutes and me and caty were just laughing. we started saying she was humping my hair and stuff. and all the thats what she said stuff ahah. anyways so i was like "caty, i hump you!" and then we somehow decided that that should be our way to say i love you. so you know how people put "ily" for i love you? well we put "ihy" for i hump you.
we said it for about 2 years! its funny how something so silly can stick for a while. hmmm... lets pretend i posted this on a monday! im gonna make new posts called "monday memories" and every week there will be a new memory of mine! :]

Things i love thursday

• a starbucks iced caramel macchiato. ((as shown above))
• the board game, risk.
• my good friends zoe and melissa.
• ordering pizza all by myselff haha.
• shopping for new clothes.
• having a soft face.
• nina <3
• mel's mommy being amazingly nice!
• studying for the first time!
  
• being done with summer school. ((and i think i did well on my regents!))
• staying strong and keeping a smile on your face when inside you feel like the whole world is crashing down on you.
• nice, warm weather.
• not wearing make up and still looking gorgeous :]
• sleeping in.

im going to continue my blog even though i said i would stop. i know nobody reads it anymore anyways but its a way for me to express myself and the things that make me happy and sad. so ill be posting how i used to. right now im sorta picking a fight with my boyfriend which isnt good but im already not in the best mood so idk. tomorrow i might have a sleepover with mel. and exactly a week from today im going to the 98pxy summer jam! with my step sisters lauren and kelly, my daddy and his girlfriend lisa! ill tell you all about it when it actually happens haha. alrighty thenn. good night worldd :]

i said i was done with this blog but i lied. idk how often im going to post but right now i need to because i just have so much inside of me and nobody to talk to about it.
the main thing right now thats bugging me is that my brother and a few of his friends are being obnoxious and annoying as hell! also mel is here and shes not helping either. we were downstairs and they start talking about something i did about last year. its embarrassing and they were making fun of me and all this shit. i was trying so hard to ignore it and not let them know how badly it was bothering me. youd think since mel is my friend too shed tell them to shut up but no she went along laughing too.
second im not sure who my friends are right now. me and caty got into a fight and it ended in us discussing if we should be friends or not. we did this by letters in another blog. i wrote her a letter and she never responded. so im guessing we're not friends. jessica... i had a conversation with. i wasnt sure if we were friends still though. but she seems fine with me so im thinking we're cool. sophie is another person who im not sure about right now. im just confused as to whether she wants to be friends still.
chandler, big thing in my life obviously as you can see from the majority of my posts, is not talking to me. i think he wants me out of his life. why do i think this? because he deleted me from facebook and hasnt talked to me in forever. why does he hate me so much? because im a horrible person as i was told by numerous people. i was dating devin first of all, and me and chandler were talking about going back out again and stuff. i really thought he could be the one because i love him and i liked what we had when we dated for the first few months. but after we broke up it just like ruined everything. and i could see myself with him but every time i think of kissing him i think about him and caty making out. and i cant kiss him knowing he did that. so i decided we would never get back together and i told him not to listen to me if i ever said that again because i would end up hurting him and i dont want to do that. too late, it did hurt him. and a lot from what ive heard. so im granting his wishes and not talking to him. i know i only hurt him. to make myself less tempted, i deleted his number from my phone. im trying to not talk to him, but its so hard!
its really weird the past 2 nights ive had dreams. the first one was with caty. we werent friends but i was at her house and we got along fine but we werent like... friends. the second one had chandler. it was awkward. we were in band. we were with more then just us but we were just ignoring eachother. then the people who were with us left and we were just sitting there across from eachother. trying to ignore eachother. idk what these dreams are trying to tell me but its sure not helping get them out of my head. it just makes it harder for me not to talk to them.
zoe is my best friend. i know this for a fact. she is my only best friend. im a little confused about mel. she is my friend. but i absolutely HATE when my friends are friends with my brother. i mean take brittany ochterbeck for example. we were really good friends in the 7th grade. then she became friends with eric and completely ignored me. that turned out greatt!((sarcasm)) so im not sure where mel stands right now.
also i kinda have a thing with catys brother. things are a little complicated with him though. him being 18 and all. its just different. i dont even know.
and then theres my step dad. hes a douche. hell yell at me if i do something but wont say anything to his daughter if she does the same thing! and he gets into fights with eric all the time. and he always thinks he right when most of the time hes wrong! hes so annoying.
i guess thats all. for now at least.
i wanna thank zoe and scott and zak and lauren for cheering me up the past few days.
i feel a bit better not having all this inside me now. although it would be great to actually tell someone about it. anyone who actually took the time to read this thanks i guess. i guess that means you care about whats going on in my life. or that you're just nosy. i doubt anyone would read it though. especially since its so long.
ohh summer schools almost over! still dont have anyyy friends there at all. that blows. and it will end and ill have like 2 weeks till regular school starts >.<
alrightyy byeee <3